Drinking water to stay thin
Or is it to purify?
I love you all the same

But there's no, no real with my fury
You don't have to believe me
I love you all the same

But you stole the sun from my heart
You stole the sun from my heart
You stole the sun from my heart
You stole the sun from
You stole the sun from
Aaaaahhhh

You have broken through my armour
And I don't have an answer
I love you all the same

I paint the things I want to see here
But it don't come easy
I love you all the same

But you stole the sun from my heart
You stole the sun from my heart
You stole the sun from my heart
You stole the sun from
You stole the sun from
Aaaaaaahhhh

Think I'm lost among the undergrowth
So much so I woke up
I love you all the same

But you stole the sun from my heart
You stole the sun from my
You stole the sun from my heart
You stole the sun from
You stole the sun from
Aaaaaahhhhh

I have got to stop smiling
It gives the wrong impression
I love you all the same

Maniac Street Preachers - You Stole the Sun from My Heart

IRC - Internet Relay Chat

Well, I don’t know exactly how it happened, but i can tell you what I remember from that time, which is not very accurate for i do have a selective memory, too selective I believe...
It all started on a hot day in may, i had to attend to some stupid course about customer service, you know that fucking shit that the government gives money to companies who have some of this courses supposedly to help employees to stay in shape and up to times…
Well I was having a boring day, not paying attention to what the fucking man was saying, when I notice a girl in the corner of my eye. She was an somewhat irreverent girl, with that look of fucked-up-trash-retro-new culture-something… Someone I would not try to talk to even, for I did not care about nothing those days… I was living for myself and that was something I never did really, for I was always with something or someone on my mind rather than myself. I don’t know how or why, but I started to talk to her I guess it was about a chocolate mousse dispute over lunch, that I as the gentleman I am (or try to be, not always successful), gave it to her, but she insisted that we would split it… we did.
I started to take her next to her home after it when the day was over, for it was in my way and she did not had a car. We talked about stuff like her boyfriend and her boss, etc etc, nothing really important and profound. After the fucking course was over, we remained friends, although not talking often or always never. After 3 or 4 months I was on the irc and we started talking, something about her shyness, and stuff. So she asked me to come over since her parents were away, well I thought about it for a second, and without hesitation agreed to meet her there. Of course I’ve had some drinks back at my place, so I had all the batteries charged up. Ok so I went there, she came to meet me downstairs of her building, and the night went well. I learned she was more than the eyes could meet, and maybe it was actually good for me to be there that night. And then in the morning I thought it was better to go, for I had a feeling her mother would soon arrive, and may not like to see a 24 years old man sleeping over with her 18 daughter. I was right, she came soon after I left. And there it began a story of years…

Listening to Muse: Stockholm Syndrome; Hyper Music; Plug in Baby;Cave; Showbiz & Tsp

Burn

I am going to be a dad... a father! Still can't believe....Something i always wanted, feels funny now. It doesn't feel. Do i really want it? What does it matter now? What is done is done. Nobody can undo the past, one can only hope the future can mend it. As the birth day comes closer, it's hard to feel anything... I know i will be forever the outcast of it all to some people.Fuck them! "If i could i would do it different". Wow what a unsensitive prick i am right? Fuck you! Yes, i guess i will have a child sometime this month or the next. I will be her father no matter what, so what the fuck do i stand trial for? If it is for not being with the mother... Yes, find me guilty. I do not agree with the way she lives, or she thinks... even if i tried really hard, i could not find a person who differs more from what i am. You see i was numb, cause my best friend had left me, and with her she took my lover, my wife, the mother of my children... Why did you do it, you ask... I don't know... There was something about it, something i don't remember. And yes, i've been away from it, but only i know that i think about it everyday, and still i can't even start to understand what is like expecting a child of your own.

Listening to Depeche mode - Behind the wheel; Barrel of a gun; People are people & Walking in my shoes

Amor II

Quem me dera que n fosses tu, que fosse ela... De certeza que nada seria igual. Tudo mudaria tudo seria mais agradável... Tudo seria como deveria ser, como eu sonhei, como pensei, como idealizei. Mas és tu, o tipo de pessoa que menos me diz, a argolada do século... Nem se vivesse 7 vidas poderia esquecer tudo.... Asneira total. E agora, é ir para a frente, e não desistir dela... Não vou desistir nem que demore 5, 10 , 18 anos.

Listening to Not An Addict - K´s Choice album Paradise in Me