Rocket Man

Gonna repeat a song i played in some post, but after seeing the movie, i realize.... Some dreams you can´t follow. Some are not only up to you... The truth hurts, but is nothing more than just that.

Listening to David Fonseca - Rocket Man album Dreams in Colour

To save something

Today i stopped my car in the middle of trafic on the highway to try to save a kitten lost and confused. Nobody else stopped. The young one was to be let to die. I couldnt he ran away to the bushes... Everyone on that highway stopped and stared at me as i was some crazy man, who left his car in the middle of the road to try this kitten not to die....
I hope he made it, but what i learned from today, is that people are not happy with their lifes, cause they dont even stop to wonder. Fucked up world we live in.

Fucking brilliant!

Paula Cole - I dont wanna wait

So open up your morning light
And Say a little prayer tonight
You know that if we are to stay alive
To see the peace in every eye

She had two babies
One was 6 plus one was 3
In the wa of '44
Every time the phone rang
Every heart beat stinging
As she thought it was GOD calling her
Oh would her son grow to know his father?

I don't wanna wait
For our lives to be over
I want to know right now
What will it be
I don't wanna wait
For our lives to over
Will it be yes or will it be Sorry?

He showed up all wet
On the rainy front porch step
Wearing shrapnals in his skin
And the war he saw
Lives inside him still
It's so hard to be gentle and warm
The years pass by and now he has grand-daughters

I don't wanna wait
For our lives to be over
I want to know right now
What will it beI don't wanna wait
For our lives to be over
Will it be yes or will it be
Sorry?

Oh so you look at me
From across the room
You're wearing your anguish again
Believe me, I know the feeling
It sucks you into the jaws of anger
Oh, so dig a little more deeply, my love
All we have is the very moment
And I don't want to do what
His father and his father and his father did
I want to be here now

So open up you morning light
And say a little prayer tonight
You konw that if we are to stay alive
To see the peace in every eye
I don't wanna waitFor our lives to be over
I want to know right now
What will it beI don't wanna wait
For our lives to over
Will it be yes or will it be

I don't wanna wait
For our lives to be over
I want to know right now
What will it beI don't wanna wait
For our lives to over
Will it be yes or will it be Sorry?
So open up you morning light
And say a little prayer tonight
You know that if we are to stay alive
To see the love in every eye

So, she does not love me like i love her.
So what?Am i too demanding?
Sometimes i am, with little things...Who fucking cares?
Is she loved me right, these things should not matter at all.
A simple life is what i aim for.Is it so damn hard to find a good girl, who wants the fucking same?Is that too much? Too little?
Not much hollywood like right?
Not too much fashion radio music ehh?
If i make mistakes cant i be forgiven?
Must them always be remembered?
Am i a fucking alien?
Or i am just a sharp shooter who always aim at the wrong target?
Its all bullshit!!
I fuck up a lot, but i get fucked a lot more.And i am a full grown man that can choose the proper way to be fucked.
But no, there is always questions in my mind: "Am i being the best human?", "being the best father? Friend? Family member? Lover?"
Fuck the best man.Always improving myself!!!Always tryin to get the best out of me.I mean people should try to be better, but not like this, not like me. This becomes my fault, to try and be always better than the last time.If manking evolved to where we are today, it was through insatisfaction, so i guess i can be an individual who resumes all this mankind search for better, faster, more.And after all, i am only a man. Just one like others. Where is Wally? Blended in the crowd. Just one more. No special one, no chosen one.
Just me.
What is really important?Does anything matters?
If you make dinner with love for your girlfriend, will it be diferent of going to macdonalds? Whould she eat just the same?
She would.
No matter.
Who cares nobody reads this shit i put here anyway...

Listenning to Annie Lennox - A Winter Shade Of Pale

Hábitos

Nunca foi nada de especial, mas ao fim de 4 meses cria-se um hábito.
O homem é um animal de hábitos.
Eu sou homem.

I know you'll never read this - Nunca verás estas palavras

In The End - Linkin Park

It starts withOne thing, I dont know whyIt doesnt even matter how hard you tryKeep that in mindI designed this rhymeTo explain the due timeAll I knowTime is a valuable thingWatch it fly by as the pendulum swingsWatch it count down till the end of the dayThe clock ticks life awayIts so unrealYou didnt look out below,Watch the time go right out the windowTryn to hold onDidnt even know, I wasted it allJust to watch you goI kept everything insideAnd even though I triedIt all fell apartWhat its meant to beWill, eventually be,A memory of a time,When I tried so hard and got so farBut in the end, it doesnt even matter...I had to fall, to loose it all...But in the end, it doesnt even matter...One thing, I dont know whyIt doesnt even matter how hard you tryKeep that in mindI designed this rhymeTo remind myselfHow I tried so hard...Dispite the way you were mocking meActing like I was part of your propertyRemembering all the times you fought with meIm surprised it got so farThings arent the way they were beforeYou wouldnt even recognize me anymoreNow that you knew me back thenBut it all comes back to meIn the end...You kept everything insideAnd even though I tried it all fell apartWhat it meant to be, willEventually, be a memory of a timeWhen I tried so hard,And got so far,But in the end, it doesnt even matterI had to fall, to loose it allBut in the end, it doesnt even matterIve put my trust in youPushed THAT as far, as I can goFor all thisTheres only one thing you should knowIve put my trust, in youPushed THAT as far as I can goFor all thisTheres only one thing you should know...I tried so hard,And got so far,But in the end, it doesnt even matterI had to fall, to loose it all,But in the end, it doesnt even matter

Statistics say...

"In the course of an average lifetime you will, while sleeping, eat 70 assorted insects and 10 spiders"

Listenning to Jefferson Airplane - White Rabbit album Surrealistic Pillow